I admit, I’ve been SUPER negligent about blogging and 2017 has been a tumultuous year filled with heavy workload. At the time of my last review, I was student teaching and in a a perpetual state of anxiety. It was not good. My daily commute to the school I was teaching at took 45 minutes and I would spend the entirety of the drive filled with dread and anxiety over what I had to do. To be quite honest, I never really got over those feelings but they definitely lessened and morphed into slight nervousness as I gained confidence in my abilities. Despite these morning jitters, I made some wonderful memories student teaching and also gained powerful learning experiences within the classroom.
In the meantime, I returned to this blog not for the sake of book blogging because frankly, I longer can no longer afford the time and commitment to reading and reviewing books at the pace I used to. Instead, I wish to transition this blog into more personal territories. That said, I will still use this space to voice my thoughts on books I’ve read but since I have not really read anything recently, (unless you count the pedagogical articles that I read for my education courses) those book review posts will be scarce. I hope to expand my writing to my other interests and hobbies. I have started to read more manga and also watched a few anime shows during my breaks. I even surprise myself sometimes with the lengths I’m willing to go just to procrastinate. So I’ve fallen down the anime/manga rabbit hole. And not to mention that rabbit hole called BTS. 2017, it’s been a helluva year.
This morning, I woke up in a country ruled by kakistocracy. Yesterday, we were a democratic republic and we exercised that right by voting for our presidential candidates. We, the people, had the power to vote and I am so disappointed to say that this will probably go down as one of the poorest decisions the U.S. citizens have ever made. The extent of the damage we will incur doesn’t just stop at Donald Trump. In case you forget, Mike Pence will be elected into office too. This isn’t just limited to our nation. This affects the world. Look at how South Korea’s stock market just crashed in light of last night’s events. People have been trying to justify their support for Trump but in the end, I just pity them for their lack of information, ignorance, and blindness. Just because he promises to ‘make America great again’ doesn’t mean he will go through with it. However, we already have proof of his bigotry, racism, sexism, and classism. He is corrupt in the truest sense of the word and yet people continue to praise him higher than Clinton. Clinton has her own pitfalls but they are not powered by hate. We see proof of the aforementioned aggressions and white privilege, and yet we continue to allow it to fester. Today, hate prevailed. Where underlying tensions and oppressions were subtle to say the least, they are now fully exposed. We, America, are truly a divided country.
I truly hope those who voted for Trump understand the full ramifications upon the lives of people of different backgrounds, ethnicities, and orientations. I can only speak this as a second-generation Chinese-American female millennial and future educator, someone who will be deeply impacted by his values and future actions. My parents and grandparents did not immigrate here with the expectation of institutionalized hate crimes, racism, sexism, and bigotry hurled at them. We thought this country was progressive. We thought we changed but instead, we traveled back in time. This is the result but I ardently hope this will encourage political discussions with peers, families, and friends because it is relevant. The history we learn in class is necessary, and it is all the more reason for civics to be deeply integrated into the educational curriculum. For the next 4 years and on, please educate each other and stay informed, so that rather than a precedent, this election will serve as a cautionary tale for young generations as they emerge into their own respective beings.
So I have been neglecting the blog ever since the end of finals in May (AGH IT’S ALREADY NOVEMBER) and it doesn’t seem like I will return anytime soon. I can’t believe it has been half a year since my last entry! I’ll be lurking around but this semester is super hectic as I am taking four STEM courses. In addition, leading a life group (some people call it a bible study group), heavy involvement with the dance team, cultural club, tutoring, and part-time job has all but exhausted me. This semester has marked new changes in my life as I read less and less, and spent more time glued to my textbooks. In short, education has truly taken over my life and it is quite overwhelming to say the least.On a side note, the biology and math courses are different from the typical pedagogy classes I took in previous semesters, but they are highly engaging and interesting. Biology presents a different sort of challenge as I discover how to apply concepts, write lab reports, and create examples to supplement graphs and equations. The enjoyment of learning and participating in these classes has surprisingly reassured me that I am in the right major. For those who do not know, I am first and foremost an elementary educator major, and I recently picked a specialization in biology for my second major in STEM. The course workload is difficult but I enjoy how profound and complex life systems can be. The enjoyment of learning itself is such a blessing which almost invalidates the grade I receive for it.
I hope to return to reading and writing routinely but chances are slim for now. Since I am so preoccupied with my academic studies, I will attempt to pen anecdotes and ruminations about my current life in lieu of the book reviews. To be honest, I don’t remember the last time I actually sat down and journalled. I have a strong feeling that I will most likely ‘word vomit’ and say whatever comes into my mind. Already, I feel like this post is a train wreck…I admit, I am so out of practice that my writing skills has downgraded to the level of a high schooler. Which is all the more reason that I should start writing again!
P.S. Here, have a picture of me by the lake! (I am the one on the left.)
Hello!~ It’s actually been a while since I got nominated for an award so it’s going to be fun fun fun! Thank you, Summer from xingsings for nominating me for the Dragon’s Loyalty Award. I saw that she used a customized thumbnail for the award so I googled the original picture for the award. Erm…yes, so I’m going to also use a different picture because the original tag is not that appealing.
1. I am part of a traditional Chinese dance team that goes by a name with ‘Dragon’ in it.
2. I used to be a psychology and elementary ed major but I switched my psych major to iSTEM with a bio specialization so I will be graduating a semester late.
3. I think Zootopia is better than Frozen.
4. I don’t really watch any TV shows (believe me, I’ve tried) and I don’t have Netflix.
5. I love orange juice (not from concentrate). And 2% milk. Skim milk is so sickly-looking.
6. I rarely wear makeup. I’m just honestly lazy and even if I do, I just wear eyeliner.
7. I’m afraid of heights but I still go on roller coasters and ropes courses for the thrill of it.
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Hello fellow bloggers!
I wanted to talk about my other hobbies aside from books because they’re just as much a part of my life as reading is.
I have been listening to Kpop since junior year in high school but I wasn’t really into until college began. And at that time, I still am not as invested as I am now. Because there’s deeper holes to fall into than just simply listening to the music. In fact, Kpop consists of boy groups and girl groups and each of them have their very own fandom. This is just a little bit of information on it but I just wanted to say that I attended Exo’s concert a couple weeks ago!
This is Exo:
Yes, that’s nine members that you’re looking at. I wouldn’t say that I’m part of the Exo-L fandom (EXO-L is the name of their fandom) but I am indeed a huge fan of their music. I loved 90% of all the songs they sang in the concert. (I was really sad they didn’t sing El Dorado 😦 But I was happy they didn’t sing Wolf. LOL)
- I was 100% sure by the middle of the concert that my bias is Xiumin. YES, IT’S OFFICIAL YA’LL.
Okay, my fangirling is over.
- Their choreography wasn’t as on point as I expected it to be. Sadly, it wasn’t that synchronized but their voices were magical! It’s like straight out of the CD.
- The view was pretty good for $160.
- It was LIT. Teeming with screams and shouts, the entire section was standing up and waving their lightsticks.
- They sang some of my all-time favorites: Run, Peter Pan, Lucky, 3.6.5., My Answer, Playboy, etc.
- Xiumin and Chanyeol were super lively and so extra during their performances. They really brought up the energy in the crowd.
- The Lucky performance is a huge fan service. I remember watching their Manila performance because the screen ripped while they were changing behind it LOL.
- Their English was terrible but they tried. The translator had a heavy accent but she tried. It’s okay, music transcends barriers.
- The stage was extended but relatively simple. The only prop that they really brought out was a huge cube that Chanyeol stood on.
- D.O.’s vocals gave me life.
- I redeemed my Chipotle (Raincheck coupon) before I attended the concert hehe so I got a free dinner.
- The pit definitely got a lot of interaction. Would I go in the pit? On strictly 2 conditions: It’d be for BTS and if the package included a hi-touch/autograph session.
Here is my favorite video clip they played during an interlude: https://picasaweb.google.com/lh/photo/4fB8fjR2CbAcX7TmEpDxTtMTjNZETYmyPJy0liipFm0?feat=directlink
Liked what you saw? Here are a couple music videos:
In case you were curious of what fandom I am actually part of, you can check out BTS’s music!
I have a couple weeks of summer left before school starts and it’s terrifying and anxiety-inducing simply to imagine the hassles of moving into my off-campus housing, buying books, and paying for other amenities. I’m very worried about what I’m going to do this semester because I’m past the halfway point which means I’m pressured to find an internship, look for student teaching opportunities, and get involved with the community and campus organizations. These are all things that I thought of fleetingly and now that fall semester is starting, pushing it to the back of my mind is now no longer an option.
I truly believe that attending college in America is expensive and not even a luxury. The job market is frankly too competitive for the average college student and we have to do too much to simply apply for an entry-level position. Graduates clamor to snatch an unpaid internship. UNPAID, do you hear me? I talk to people who go to top national universities and they tell me that they’re worried about not getting a job after graduation. Which is ridiculous because they’re literally paying to go to a brand name college since it will most likely guarantee them a job. However, the fact that they think about this shows just how bad the economy is right now. This correlates to the presidential election because America really needs someone who can help millennials right now. Forget about the corporations and middle-aged adults; we need a president who can help the youths and that means directly addressing education, testing, healthcare system, and the welfare of college students. Why is it that college graduates are unemployed?
I don’t want to end up like that so that means I need to struggle and work harder than my parents. My parents did not immigrate to America to pass on this burden to me; they came to achieve the American dream themselves. I worked hard as an adolescent alongside my parents at the restaurant but the point of me going to college is to never work at a restaurant again. But I find that I’m forced to work in the restaurant again during the summer because no one wants to pay when they can simply get volunteers, and oftentimes people require a connection to get a foot in the door.
Growing up poor is sadly a reality: I have no connections since I did not have the privilege to make them in my piss-poor environment. This leads to my current situation: I cannot afford to volunteer or have an unpaid internship. Who thought it a good idea to force labor on college students when they have to take out loans to pay for tuition?
So as a junior, I shake my head at all these expectations. The chips are stacked against me. I’m also Asian and although people say it’s a positive stereotype to be the model minority, I beg to differ. We are expected to be smart and very efficient so that means we need to work harder to meet those expectations. That sets the bar way higher for us than any other ethnicity. I need to be smarter than the average Asian to even join the workforce because there’s always another Asian available to replace me.
If you have the time, money, and means to attend cram school, get tutored, and take SAT/ACT (or whatever test your nation forces you to take) classes, please do it now. It only gets harder from hereon out.
Braised pork over rice
Fish meatball soup
Sides: pickled cucumbers and tofu
Popular franchise that served udon soup under 60 seconds.
Korean bibimbap at Rao He Street Night Market
Kimchi, fried egg, Chinese spinach, shredded pork, spicy marinated bean sprouts, white rice
Side: seaweed soup